A house of cards and narcissists
March 18, 2014Seeds
April 9, 2014The end is always better than the beginning, it doesn’t matter how it starts all that matters is how it ends.
Friday was the end or the beginning (depending on how you look at it) of a very arduous journey for me. I found out where I matched for residency. It was quite annoying to go through different variations of this conversation about 1000 times for the past two years
Me: I am hopefully starting residency in June
Person: Really? Where?
Me: I don’t know. I find out in March
Person: Why.
Me: Grits teeth and begins a long winded explanation of the medical match process (an over the top job hunt)
I thank Jesus that I know where I am going, that I was given a chance to go where I am going and this portion of the journey is finally over.
I remember the dream I had and my resolute decision not to give up on it and God.
I remember when I had both the admission letter for nursing school and medical school. One was easy, practical and reasonable, the other a blank letter, an untraveled road, risky, foolhardy and difficult. One was familiar nursing school in Chicago, the other not so much medical school in a new city where I knew a handful of people.
I had nothing but I had God
And with God I had the family He gave me and my friends.
And with God I had Hebrews 11, not a full understanding of it but grasping enough that faith in God can move mountains.Sometimes you just need to grasp a little to move.
It wasn’t easy. I needed more than faith.
Resilience
Dogged Determination
Steel in your spine
A fighting spirit.
And a strong will.
I have realized that there are two people who determine if you will make it, if you will achieve that dream, get that promotion, start and succeed in that business , publish that novel…. Insert whatever dream you have/had. I have realized God is always in your corner with a perpetual yes. The rest is up to you.
If you believe you can make it, you probably can.
If you believe you cant, you probably cannot
It does not matter if you are international student, a non traditional student, single mother, orphan, poverty stricken, rich , disabled…no matter what odds are against you
Your dream is between you and God., with him you can become an unstoppable force, a unit.
If God wants it, if you want it, pursue it like its already yours.
Pursue it with a single minded focus that is unparalleled.
No matter how many times you fall, get back up again and fight for your dream.
Do what you can humanely do and watch Him do what you cant do.
You will have to fight for it, it will not be handed to you on a platter.
Dream big and fight big because cliche or not you have a big God.
I am a walking and breathing testimony of this.
God loves dreamers. God supports dreamers. Godis a dreamer.
The question will you dream with Him?
Or let the world carve out an apportioned allocation to you based on your race, sex or social class?
Or based on what you don’t have instead of what you do have?
So on the day I had a choice to make between nursing and medicine, I choose to dream with my superficial understanding of Hebrews 11 but with an understanding that I had a God.
And with God nothing truly is impossible.
***** Does holy ghost dance off the stage******
